Alex has mixed feelings about snowmen, which is interesting because usually he is quite sure how he feels- he likes it or he doesn't. I wonder what it is about the snowmen that has him somewhere in between.

Nate has gone back to work after three weeks off. The apartment is so quiet now, and I find myself feeling kind of like I did when we first got here, which is wondering what to do now. Except now it is snowy and I am big and Alex seems bigger and I can hardly carry him to the end of our driveway. Also, now, I am not wondering what to do in a worried, helpless sort of way. I guess I feel confident with my options and comfortable with my surroundings. And considering the uncertainty of our future it seems best to take advantage of being a little comfortable and bored. I wish I could get motivated and try to fufill the 8 credits of art electives I wanted to complete while I was here. If only somehow I could transfer my overactive brain into something that looked like art work. I wish I could find some printmaking ink, and a potty training seat.

Lately, I spend alot of time thinking about my neighbors. I think about their lives and how they are at home everyday with 2+ kids, hanging up laundry, wiping the windows down multiple times a day, making meals. There husbands come home on the weekends and are rarely seen, and they don't really ever have friends over and never seem to go anywhere. And I don't think they wonder what they are going to do with their lives or if they are satisfied. And I think about my me and my friends who may be reading this, and the options and freedom we have and how we don't know what we are going to do, but I wouldn't want change places. It is no wonder to me now why they keep you in the hospital at least a week here after you have a baby, it is probably one of the only breaks these women get. It is interesting to me, not good or bad, just very different.

We still don't know whether we are having a boy or a girl, or where the birth will be for sure, but so far things are good. I am almost positive that it is a girl, but any suggestions for boys names are encouraged!